Last week, I had a breakdown. I experienced the worst back pain and headache I have had in years. My body revolted against me in agony and taught me a lesson. This is what I learned from this:
I am Human.
As a human, I require rest, both mentally and physically. When I come home from my day job, I move right into my main job of being a mother and taking care of my kids and household. Unfortunately, there are days I feel like I am not giving my kids my best. Instead, they receive what is left of me and I have a problem with that. I am frequently exhausted and so burned out, it depresses me. This has lead me to:
Get My Priorities Straight.
I don’t know about you, but quality of life for me is not constantly being so busy you can barely breath. My children are my top priority. Period. Telling them that is not good enough, I have to show my children they are important by giving them my time and attention. Secondly, my health is important to me, but I have not giving this priority standing in my life like I want to. It’s no wonder I had two days of pain, but now I understand that:
Breakdowns can be a Blessing.
The first day of my body’s mutiny, I was conversing with a friend about our dreams and goals for life. She and I touch base a few times during the week to encourage each other. She told me to have the breakdown and to let it come so I could rebuild. She told me to find the blessing in this and realize that my breakthrough was on the way. When you are in the midst of your mess, you don’t always see the blessing. She reminded me that I needed to rest, focus and realign. Now, I know I have to:
Focus and Wait for the Harvest.
Another friend called me this weekend to see how I was doing and mentioned what a challenge it is to wait. Waiting is not easy. It can be downright hard, but while we wait, we can choose how we act. One way of looking at waiting is like this: I planted a bunch of heirloom tomatoes last year and I checked them every day for signs of fruit. It took months before the plants flowered and another few months before fruit appeared. What I did not see was all the growth going on in the dirt. In order to hold up this huge plant and eventually support the fruit, the root system had to be established first. My harvest would not have been plentiful if I did not wait. Not even MiracleGro could make the plants produce fruit faster. I simply had to wait and while I was waiting, I grew more and more excited about the anticipation of fruit. Isn’t this a lot like life?
No matter how much we want something to happen faster, it will happen in its own time and in the meantime, we can choose to have a good disposition while waiting for our breakthrough.
